When in doubt, Dance it out.

NOOOO.

Wrote a shitload of crap. Well it wasn’t crap…but I accidentally deleted it and can’t UNDO.

Fudgecakes ]:

Hahhaha at all the hate.

To summarize my past few months;

-Australia was amazing, going back there on the 27th of May.

-Came to a realization that no relationship is perfect, and with work, love, and dedication you and your soulmate can conquer all obstacles.

-Meditated on my flaws. A lot of my disbelief and negative energy in regards to my relationship had come from a certain being that caused a lot of mental stress on my brain and emotional hardship on my heart. Got that certain someone kicked out and deleted from me and my significant others life.

-Reading some inboxes, ‘one minute you’re sad, another minute you’re happy’. Quite true, sorry but I’m only human and I’ve got a terrible issue when it comes to me and my emotions. And damn am I sensitive.

-Reading my previous posts, I can only look back and grow. Most don’t understand what it is like to seriously drop your entire lifestyle for one you feel is the saviour to your constantly bleeding heart. Well I did it, was scary…being around company which I was not familiar towards….and holy shit was the first month hell. It was a test of my love towards the person I was willing to give everything up for. Summary: We got married.

-Got a cute gold ring on my finger with 5 dark sapphires and 5 diamonds.

 -Reminds me of Ying and Yang, which is me and Maxs inside joke that we are the ying to our yangs. So it goes.

-I am quite complete, met some amazing people, made one enemy. But overall had an amazing time in Australia. ;3

Talk all your shit please :D

Recently;

-Had to come back due to legal reasons.

-Coincidentally got summoned for Jury Duty a week after I flew back.

-Had to file for my taxes.

-These past two months since I’ve been back have been the most depressing.

However, I’m flying back at the end of the week so I am pleased :D <3x8

Oh snap, I haven’t been on here in a while

:3

Relationships, I need help

I’m at witts end.
Troubled depseated emotions that are bottled inside me to where I have a trigger when a certain person is brought into my visual or ear filled life.
This kind of trigger has caused me to engage in physical altercations with my soulmate and portray a certain immature behavior towards him and others.
I can take responsibility for my own outward negative actions but can only wish, hope and pray that someday max can come to a realization that if this person continues to take part in our lives , I will never find the true happiness that I sought when I gave up everything and left my country.
It’s gotten to the point where I still have an open ticket and am willing to leave him if things got worse..
Hmm sigh relationships are so hard/:

I wish I didn’t feel like you’re always hiding something/:

But you don’t/: And it makes me sad

But you don’t/: And it makes me sad

I just wish you would understand my frustration

Out of all your lovely friends you just have to talk to the only one I hate.

Stressed